The Coffee Table Muse - Ponderings on our EGO and its Insanity
“With all the ‘self-help’, ‘laws of how to’ and ‘you-can-do-it’ information out there - including how to "succeed-in-business" and take control of your life, we are no better off - in fact, we have more depression, feelings of hopelessness and financial debt than ever. We are unhealthy, unhappy and way from our true potential as humans. We appear to be happy, yet we are dis-eased and suffer emotionally. Our happiness is brought about by the wants of our Ego. We never really know our self let alone connect fully with another. All our relationships are shallow and mostly Ego driven. We have surrounded ourselves with material things and knowledge, yet we still seek true happiness. We have lost our way; it is time to reclaim our life, our health, our spirit and our soul from the man made Hell we have created by living through our Ego. Time to ponder on all! Enjoy my Ponderings on the Ego and its insanity :Samantha Rayn Bachma. Publisher: Samantha Rayn Bachman Copyright Year: © 2011
A$
29.00
The Soul With ATTITUDE!
The Coffee Table Muse - Ponderings on our EGO and its Insanity
Overview of her book on finding your SOUL and getting rid of your EGO
Forward
I've decided to leave my Ego on the coffee table to be shared by all.
Keep it if you like - I've had my fun with it and besides it has become way to expense to maintain!
Enjoy!
How to use The Coffee Table Muse books
The words in this book are meant to be pondered.
They are inspired by the truth of my SOUL with the view of helping others get out of EGO.
Bottom line is, your EGO will always be there.
It is understanding and being aware of your EGO that will help guide you to find who you really are and meet your SOUL
If you read each piece and ponder its meaning and hidden meaning disguised in it’s sometimes, ‘tongue in cheek’ humor, you will find you.
Sometimes we find our self in a laugh – well a better way to put it would be – “In a laugh we can see our self”.
In speaking from my soul, I found my voice.
Try it!
From my heart
After God knows how many years and thousands of dollars in motivational and self help seminars, workshops and retreats I am happy to say I FOUND THE ANSWER I WAS LOOKING FOR, the answer was in ME, or a better way of putting it would be to say the answer ‘WAS ME’.
I now see that for me and others who look outside of themselves they will only become more confused as to who they really are.
Am I this or that?? Well depending on whom your EGO has become at that time, will give you a different answer, or maybe you could say a different IDENTITY.
Let me explain, over the years, I had taken on, ‘Many Hats’ you might say in an attempt to find real happiness.
Although I had seemed to the world, and had convinced myself most of the time, that I was one of the ‘lucky ones’, you know had it all, the perfect life.
However inside I would crash and burn a couple of times a year just trying to live up to my own expectations, (and that of others).
It was when I realized that it was ME, yep, ME that was responsible for my own pain and suffering, that I found peace, I mean peace, no more pain, poor me, I can’t do this any more…(OK I am exaggerating a bit so you get the idea), but in short, I was responsible for me and that there had been a character in my life discussed as ME that had caused me such grief that now that I finally saw this character, I could deal with them.
It was my EGO, was it Skyhooks (Band) who said, “Ego is not a dirty word? (Song), mmm well it is or I should say, ‘it can be’.
My EGO had taken on a life of its own with no consideration for me at all.
When I started to work on my EGO I found my SOUL, I found the light! Literally I found the light and with it came such peace; happiness and love that I wanted to share it with all.
In having children, four, (so I do understand why some animals eat their young), when I discovered ME, I so wanted to help them, yet I was unable to help myself at first. My journey to self is their journey to self too, as it is yours.
With a bit of time and work, you too will see the Insanity you have caused yourself in your life through listening to your EGO and giving no time at all to the ponderings and wisdom of your SOUL.
Please enjoy the truth, reality and the tongue in cheek humor of what I have shared with you in my book.
It is meant to be a light humorous read on one level, yet something that will make you think and confront your own demons on another.
There is plenty of space for you to write your own thoughts that are stimulated by each read.
With love in my heart, an EGO out the door and words from my SOUL I bring you the Coffee Table Muse©.
Love and Hugs Samantha Rayn Backman.
One last thank you
Thank you to ‘The Folks’ (Gods) and Wallace (my Jesus), for such amazing friends and family in my life such as Sonja, Jolene, Hayley Jane, Sir Reg, Aunty Jan, Lizzy, John, Ron, Charmel, Liora, Tanya, Denise, Peter, Ann, my 4 beautiful children, Sheryn, Jeremy, Clayton and Rhianon, my son-in-law Ryan and the love of my life, my amazing husband Elijah Jhey Jackson, as well as the many others that have touched my heart and seen my soul, even when my ego has been at its loudest. Thank God I have found my cruise control button at last!
Samples from the book The Coffee Table Muse - Ponderings on our EGO and its Insanity
* The Wake.
I saw the death of someone close to me, someone I had known my whole life.
Someone who at stages was my best friend, but in the end I realized that it was all about them, no consideration for me at all.
So here I am at the wake, enjoying every moment.
I am actually quite happy to see this character go, for life has such joy and peace that I wished I had removed this trouble maker from my life years ago.
So yes – I’ll have another beer and say farewell to my EGO
* I heard the voice of my SOUL
It is different to the voice of my EGO.
Although all the voices sound just like me, it can be hard to tell who is who; however it is in the silence that the SOUL speaks, you will know it when you hear its voice. It is the voice of truth from within
* People are hungry for an identity!
Hey - mines for sale!
Actually you can just take it!
I’m working from my Soul these days so don’t need it!
* The EGO is afraid.
An EGO will always feel threatened and vulnerable and lives in a state of fear. This fear is not real – it is created by the EGO itself...
There is no need to understand the dysfunction, just know this flaw is there.
To lose a problem for some can mean a loss of who they are - their identity. For some they feel the need to replace it with another fear, or problem to feel them self. Strange thing isn't it?
* The EGO Remover
Want to know what’s causing your pain, stress, anxiety and un-happiness.
I know, because I've had the same problem…….so let me get to the bottom of yours.
My specialty is ass-holes, solicitors, (dah, same thing I guess), and all-ways-right EGOS.
Give me a call on 1800 bringonthehappiness
* 24 hour alert!
My SOUL now has a full time job – I have given it the task of consulting with me on matters of the HEART, guiding me and keeping an eye on my EGO.
It is really watching the EGO; it gives me a nudge as soon as it pops up.
As with the other matters, forget the business plan, the SOUL has taken the wheel and I am sitting back and enjoy the ride of my life.
Look out destiny, here I come.
Love it – it gives me a break.
* Epidemic Insanity.
In reality we are all members of the human race that has killed 100 million of its members in the 20th century alone.
We have insanity at epidemic proportions.
You only have to look at the human EGO and see the fear, the despair, the greed, the violence – see the horrendous cruelty and suffering on an unimaginable scale that humans have inflicted and continued to inflict on each other as well as on other life forms on the planet.
I really can’t see any good points to our EGO right now!
* EGO looking for room mate.
I moved recently, and it was about time.
I’d been living in my EGO since puberty.
Finally I had had enough of its whining, complaining and opinions – so I moved in with my body again – A place that I had lived as a child, however, when puberty happened, I moved in with my mind and rarely kept contact with my body.
Now I have cut all ties with my EGO and am getting to know my body again.
So far I am amazed at just how much we have in common, which was not the case with the EGO at all.
Anyway - so now I have a fully furnished EGO for rent. It comes with attitude and its own opinions.
Please do not apply direct as it doesn’t quite know I’ve gone yet and will talk to you about me all day - come directly to my body and knock on my HEART, I’m residing there these days.
* Back with the body again.
After moving out on my EGO and moving back in with my BODY again, I was pondering on its health and soon saw that it had been neglected, and that the EGO was not the slightest bit concerned.
When ever I had brought up the subject with it, (my EGO), it had simply came up with every reason it could to tell me all was OK.
I now realize these were just excuses to divert my attention, make me believe all was great, or take up my time by listening to its criticism of my, or others bodies, whilst all along distracting me from any conversation with my BODY.
Anyway, on track now, for the last few weeks I have been giving my BODY nothing but raw foods, full on nutrition, fiber and taste.
The bowels are certainly happy that shit’s happening and the tongue is ecstatic about waking up fresh - ready for the days’ new delights.
* Kids love to play.
I remember as a kid my BODY loved to get out and play, but when I moved in with my EGO at puberty, things changed. I look back now and see how it, (My EGO), began wanting to be my only friend, by distracting my attention to play with it only.
I see now that when I did listen to my BODY - the EGO would be whining and bitching the hole time – thinks like, OK that’s enough, its too hot out here, or look at others, you have nothing really to prove, never been sick - so you’re one of those with a great constitution, and then it even pulled the old trick of – All right you want to do this, then we’ll start Monday, all along just distracting me.
Well I’m awake to it now and how nice it is to be out walking without it and enjoying the smells of life!
My lymphatic system is particularly over the moon, it never could understand why I bought that ‘rebounder’ and then stuck it in the garage, finally to sell it at the next garage sale when all it really wanted was to get out and walk.
Eyes are loving it too, what was that, mmmm a cute little thing lying there on the beach, yep, gonna keep this walking up!
* Sprung!
Although I had gotten rid of my EGO sometime ago, I found it to be always trying to get back into my life when ever it sees an in.
I have discovered it likes to pop in when I have Tequila, PMS, or an ass hole in front of me!
Oh… and it especially likes parties. It drops in uninvited and sometimes is so quiet I don’t even realize it’s there.
It tends to just listen at first and blend in with the conversations, but it can’t help its self by keeping quiet for too long……… all of a sudden it’s shooting its big mouth off again.
Gonna put my SOUL on 24 hour alert from now on and lay off the Tequila!
Beer any-one?
And these are just some of the samples of words of inspiration from Samantha to her readers....
Happy Pondering from Samantha
Copyright © 2011 Samantha Rayn Bachman
All Rights Reserved www.samanthabachman.com
